Dear Jakeb,
I don’t want you to leave but I suppose you must. I know you are excited to start this new phase of your life but could you please be just a little sad to leave? Just a little? You will miss me right???
I know God is protecting you because I’m praying for that. I know you are in His very capable hands but I will still worry. Because that’s what Mom’s are really good at. Just don’t do anything stupid. Ok, don’t do anything REALLY stupid. After 18 years of living with you I’m pretty sure that doing nothing stupid is way too much to expect.
Seriously, I am here for you. Night and day, whoever’s night or day it happens to be given the timezone differences. Call me, text me, email me anytime. You can call or text your dad too but if it’s in the middle of our night he won’t hear it. Just sayin’.
When you leave this house tonight with your life packed into two 23kg suitcases and carryon and your one way business class ticket across the ocean to Texas, you will leave an empty room in our house and an 18 year-sized empty space in my heart. Know that I am so incredibly proud of you, I am praying for you, I’m here for you, I will be sitting by the phone/computer waiting to hear that you arrived safely, and I love you. Until you have your own kids you will not be able to comprehend how much I love you. And even then, it won’t be the same because you won’t be a mom and mom’s just love more than dad’s. Just kidding. Maybe.
You’re ready for this. I know you are. I’m pretty sure I’m not but my vote doesn’t count at this point.
With all of my heart,
“Mama”
P.S. We’ll always have your back!
